When I talk about the fact that I've been raped, the bolder people sometimes ask how it happened. Every once in awhile people will ask how I cope with my past and lead such a normal life today. But no one ever, ever asks what happened after. What were the moments like immediately after.
For me, the very first time I was raped left a big impact on my life. (Probably because it is one of the few times that I remember every single detail of what happened. Every other time are just blurry memories that remind me of their existence.) The bigger impact on my life is what I did after. Those moments shaped everything I did for the next three years of my life.
Even today I have a hard time escaping those moments because they haunt me every day.
I didn't scream. I didn't cry. I didn't leave. I didn't run. I didn't think. I picked myself up. I accepted what was. I moved on.
I don't know if what I did makes me strong or weak. I just know it made me.
http://www.recoveryfarmhouse.com/sober-strippers/ I read what you wrote about rape. I don't know a stripper who hasn't been raped unfortunately. Including myself. Well I may write a story about it. If I do I will send it to you.
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